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a simple thougt in the middle of the night on 21st of june

the rain is pouring down…and i’m starving here. i can’t go outside. ooowww…how hunger i am.
it’s cold in here, just me and the radio. quite fun huh…alone at your room…be the only king on your own little kingdom, hahahahaha…(still starving here…damn…)!!!!
the radio talkin’ bout garbage recycling, and about some crazy great idea to what would we do with those garbage. one of them said about to make those plastic garbage into a transparant plastic to covering all the national monument in all over jakarta…mmm…not a bad one, it would keep the monuments clean for years. but the question is, how should we doin’ the covering? is that just like covered around it, just like you covered your bed with blanket or something??? no way…how many plastic you need…???!!! it just make a number of plastic using getting bigger…am i right?! deform plastic into another plastic…
how bout to recycling the garbage into a vehicle fuel? but how??? that’s the scientist matter…!!! in my own opinion…the garbage are separated by two, the organic and the unorganic garbage. maybe the organic could formed into a chemical thing, and turn into some kind of energy, perhaps it could turn into a vehicle fuel or something…the organic will fermentated by bactery, and it would have some gas to the result of its fermentation. that gas would replace to be the new energy. that’s maybe just a simple thougt of mine.
How ’bout the unorganic? mmm…the unorganic is filled most by plastic. maybe we can burn it into a plastic liquid, and we can deform it into any plastic things that useful to our life. how ’bout to use it to be one of house construction, a house made from plastic??? mmm…not bad i think. so we need no woods and still keep the forest green without having them dull. and maybe we should try to reducing the using of plastic. we can use a bag made from fabric to pack anything to replace the plastic. a bit expensive maybe, but it’s for own goodness too right?! for own earth. why don’t we try to make some resolution and solution to save our planet. so don’t throw the garbage in unproper place, but put it in a dustbin that has been placed for your convinience. AGREE……!!!!
phhiiuuuhhhh…….hahahahaha…perhaps one of the WHO people read this blog…i really want to be accepted in UN to work as social worker for Children or Environment. mmm…i wish one day!
OK…it’s time to dine…hahahahahaha…how excited i am…bye…(i still can’t stop to smile while turning off the notebook…ha..ha..ha..)…finally…the foods…

21st of June

i feel like fallin in love every time i heared ryan cabrera singing his song titled ‘true’. a very deep and honest thing that probably every man has inside. wwhhhoooaaaaa……
i’m doin’ my final term this whole month. quite tired!!! but in the other hand, i think i should do my best (and bit of excite feeling i think…) coz this is my last term ever, my last grade… (look’s the rain is come in soonly…but why the sun still shinning bright??!!).
yesterday you told me to trying to not missin’ u too much (and perhaps to forget you at all!!!)…hahahaha…i don’t know what to said…is that what you want?! i know that we may could not be together, but it just too deep for me! alright if that what you wish, i’ll be fine…
how ironic i am…is there someone for me out there…???

I’m weak it’s true
‘Cause I’m afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
‘Cause my heart keeps falling faster

I’ve waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing that’s true
So I will not hide, it’s time to try
Anything to be with you
All my life I’ve waited, this is true

a moment before the rain fall on 12th of june.

sometimes being alone not bad at all. we can do anything we want without have no guilty to anyone. i enjoy every moment of my loneliness, listen music, eat, sleep, playing games, write my blog, and sleep again, do the assignment, etc… *what’s wrong with that stupid fan…..???!!!*
the rain has fall…ooouuwww…quite a hard rain one…the wind also…hahahaha….isn’t it’ll be great to sleep again right…hahahaha…damn, i forgot to feed the fish.

- a moment pass by -

i spent this afternoon with sleep. the rain was so hard, made the wheater gettin’ cold, not bad for a nap. and when i woke up, it just night has fall down. i’m listening to 311 with Love Song, it such a romantic thing in my slowly afternoon. wait…my mom call…
she ask me about my problem. it just nice to having an understanding mother right?! i love her so much beyond anything, after God of course…
you know…hy heart just beating now…don’t know what am i thinking of that could made it. i’m missing someone or something, so much!!!, but i don’t know who or what…damn…Alicia sing perfectly slashin’ my heart…i’m out of here…

noon on 12th of june.

i have a financial problem this time. quite conffussing. me and my two friends own a boutique, and we’ve got to attend a bazzar tomorrow. the point is we haven’t no idea where we’re gonna get the money to buy the stuff to fill out our stand. we haven’t enough stuff in our store to sell. it’s kinnda hard to manage your own bussines right?! especially when it has problem with money thing. and i’m still thinking where the money could get as soon as possible this moment…aaarrrrgggghhhhh…i really have no idea!!! i wish i had some one to share with.
the number isn’t too much, but i still couldn’t got a clue where i can get it.
God please give me your miracle…i know You always here be with me…

12th of june, 01.44

felt the ordinary. suddenly i felt the ordinary things that i thougt i would never felt this day. i’m a moody person, easly turn into a variously kind of mood in every uncertaint kjmoment. kinda hard to be that one. i already try to controling my mood in every situation, but the hardest one is when i’m in a very sensitive condition.
well..i’m in missin’ you, with nothing i can do. you’re to busy with your stuff. and when i dream…i’m afraid i dream of you. maybe someday you will come true. hahahahaha…what am i thinking of…?!1
a quite hard week almost over. full of stress, depress, and desperate. i lost my sense to writing.

10th of june.

this is the last day of my class to attend the study in my last grade. it’s kind of sad knowing that we’ll gonna separated each other after 3 years together. i’m not too close with each friend in my class, but it doesn’t meant that they don’t take any part of my story. we took some pictures before we home. leaving some memory behind, old story for a future. it feels just like yesterday i’m attending my first day in university, but today, i was attending my last day to study in this university. the class, the lectures, the term, the boring hours, the laboratory, the papers, all assignment, all presentations, friendship, laugh, crush, desperate, joy, in love, hope.
4ia10 - that’s my class are. and i’m proud to be one of the community. wish there’ll be a re-union some day… (;-_-)

4th of june, 10.20

huh…you don’t showed up last night. why…did you forgot that we had arrangement last night?! well…in fact i hate to wait, but i had wait for you 4 hours last night. no message, no phone call, no offline, no noticement before. i’m waiting a whole this week to see you. i wanna tell you my story this week. many things been happened to me.
last night i had chat with one of my friend. He told me that he’s already tired with his girlfriend. she’s always ask more attention from him, but he think that he’s already gives anything that she need most. he told me that he’s already sacrifice anything he got, espc. his time, a thing, which is for me, not everyone has in enough portion. so what else? attention based on how much the time you’ve got to shared with your partner. sometime we don’t realize that we’re too busy with our life, so that we forget to spend a little time to share with our partner. i think it’s only need a minutes or two in every 12 hours a day to showes our attention to our mate by a call. it’s look simple, but it’s means much for them. just asking how’s their day going, and maybe some “love words” inside, ooouuuwwww…some poisoning right?!
or maybe you can text them, just a text, a simple and cheap thing to showes your attention to them right?! you’re even could do that as many as your balance is enough to do…hahahahaha….?! suddenly i remember of a thing that happenned to me quite long time a go. i could doin’ almost 40 texts a day to a person, and it happened for almost a month…hahahahahaha…how stupid i am…no…it’s no a foolness!! that’s my way to showing my attention to some one i care.
well…after all my friend…if you feel tired with your girlfriend attitude, don’t ever think to end up your relation. it’s only a bit salt on your big slice Black-Forrest. just remember the first time when she could make you crazy ’bout her, so that you want to sacrifice anything that could keep you, just to keep you stand close to her. remember how you addored her most above anything’s beauty in this earth. remember how you love her most in early time, by the time you feel it, suddenly your cares will grow up one more time in your heart. and it just a beginning of second fallin’ for you to her my man…
trust me…it’s work!

3rd of june.

last night i felt so terreble…i had stomachache. i think my bowels had a wound. it feel so hurt…badly. can’t sleep until late by its pain.
but today it getting better.
yea…we still don’t talk each other. i don’t know wether it’s me or you who don’t want to made it, but i would never make one if you don’t.
well…may i asking a question please…what would you do if you were me…would you tried to make a conversation first with the one you crush in…or wait them to make one? well…sometime we can turn to be a very quite person when we stand in front of someone that we crush with right? we shy to doing something we used to, afraid to do something stupid infront of them. we pretend to be cliver and polite, and often not to be who we are in real. and sometime…if i ever had something to conversed with…i’d rather think twice, if it gonna make them laugh, interest, or bored…but when we can get into them, it would be a very great conversation we had that day right? well…after all…we’re all different, different person different way.
one thing fo sure…i am in love with you…hahahahaha…wish i know what you’re thinking of…

afternoon in 2nd of June.

sometimes im happy knowing that someone is still needing my shoulder. they can let out anythings there…like one of my bestfriend…today she cried of her problem.
well…there something keep wondering me…what would you do if you have a relationship with a possessive person? Would you keep it on…or you just let it off? No matter how love you are to that person.
if i was her…i would choose the second, i’ll let it off…well…what should you stand it for? i never in love to deeply with a person, but i ever felt hurt deeply with a person. i would never let anyone take over all my life, neither by a thing called Love. Love to me is knowing each other well and put a trust beyond anything above us. Love is Free…no bounderies, no label, no selfish, just a feel of carying, tenderness, need each other like a part, and a feel of having.
but that’s all if i was her…
but in the other thing, i feel tired to waiting someone cry at my soulder…hahahaha…coz i have to stand in one position for quite long, and can’t move my body until they stop needing my shoulder. what a hard job one right?!

afternoon in 1st of june.

I really want to watch a movie this time…mmmmm…how bout "Love Actually? well…i love that movie. showing us that love is everywhere…it’s all around us… well, i have a favorite scene, when Mark (Peter’s best friend, am i right?) came to Peter’s house to meet Julia (Peter’s wife) to tell about his feeling for her…and tell her that she’s the perfect one for him this time…but he know that just a feeling without ability to having. "Love doesn’t always owning right?" hahahahahahaha…what a romantic scene…don’t you agree with me huh? maybe you could use Mark’s way to showing your feelin’ to some one that you love with. Tell it by a drawing paper fill with your truest words…and don’t forget to playing a romantic backsound music. hahahahahaha….what a crap!!!!