this morning, one of my friend asked me ’bout
her problem and my point of view. she was afraid of relationship she’s
been follow with. most of us afraid to what we believe (feel) when it
had not been happened to us. she was afraid that the man whose been
closed to her wouldn’t felt the way she felt for him. Uncertain. She
was in Uncertain circumstance. I hate the Uncertain circumstance, prob.
most of us do. But in Love, there’s so many Uncertain we would facing.
Hope, desperate, lost, guilty, dump, doubt, hurt, wait.
I
do wait some one in Uncertain also… and i’m still waiting. Hurt, but
hopless. Sometime waiting become something that "certain" to me…but
the result was too absurd for me. i used to ended something b4 it
grows…it always be like that for me.
She never met him b4, and arranged
to have one. but she wasn’t too sure that he would like her if they’re
met. she was too afraid ’bout the possibility. she think she’s fall on
him already, but still, wasn’t quite sure was it love or was it only a
feeling of need…and if it was a Love, she wasn’t sure if she ready
for it.
The different between my friend and
i, She tried to fight her fear to meet her man, while me, could only
wait and watch over and over again withouth a brave to show how much i
feel … lost and desperate.
