…siMpLe thoUght of MEdio…

arrghh….why i keep such a sober!!! i pretend don’t Love you, and it’s breaking me so!! i stand my pride to not talk to you while it’s tortured me inside… DAMN…i’m crushing once again!! i try to accept that you don’t want us. and i try to believe it!!

it’s the hardest thing i’ll ever have to do…when you lookin’ my eyes, to show no emotion…i can’t let you see what you mean to me…it’s the hardest thing i’ll ever have to do…to turn around and walk away, pretending i don’t love you.

i really want to talk to you…but i couldn’t. I don’t know why you stare me that way!! don’t made me confuse and don’t play me that way…i already believe that you didn’t want me. please let me believe… i already tired with all of that…

but why i keep hoping you inside…while you never show your feeling to me…

this moment, i’m in hate being my self…i hate to be me who was over sensitive, i hate to be me who was to coward to showed, i hate to be me who was afraid to dealing with reality, and i hate to be me who always hoping on you!!! can i get over you?!

i want to be someone other…living someone’s life…i want to do something without being me! i want to say "I Like You" to stranger i met in streets…i wanna do some flirt to other…i want to show what i’m feeling to someone i Love. why is it so hard to do when i was me!!